Some kind of cosmic thing

Rollercoaster – I’m on one. After desperately waiting for change for months, years even, suddenly there’s a shift. Possibly I’m not in total control of it, if at all, but the wind is definitely changing direction.

Stagnation – not for me. Change is here. It may not be exactly as I want it, but it is here. Yes I have forced some things to alter, others have been out of my control.

Fear – I have it. Normally a new way of being would be a great thing to embrace, but this is pretty scary.

Funny little things are happening as I start to clear out the house. We may have a lodger by the end of the month. We may have more loft insulation too. It would be really nice to have a new job – a whole one – instead of many irons in many fires.

The loft man was quite chatty. He asked me what I did for a living, I said I  worked in the arts, but the way things were here just now, there was no room for diversity and acceptance in the arts world, so I was most likely going to walk away from something that had become so alien yet stagnant.

He said he was a photographer – had been since he got his first camera at the age of five. That made me smile. I saw this five year old boy before me. He said he had been the president of the camera club, ran his own business, took images of weddings and so on for decades.

What happened, I asked.

Partly the digital world, he said. Also being under -cut by ‘cheap professionals’. He still does photography. But I won’t say what his current idea is – it’s a rather good one and he deserves to own it.

There are so many people I have met living two lives -one of need and one which is their ideal.

He asked why the house had its name -these things interested him. I explained that it wasn’t named by me and actually it was originally called Lilac Cottage when it was built.

There’s a house on the Hebrides called My Home Beneath the Shining Stars, he told me and then said it in Gaelic. I smiled.

He left after declaring we needed another good amount of loft insulation.



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